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August 8th sunset over Hogback Ridge and Heron Peak. Durango CO with air quality warnings of "ozone" or possibly smoke from wildfires. I kept the windows closed.
Showing posts with label memory. Show all posts
Showing posts with label memory. Show all posts

Thursday, August 28, 2025

It’s all about balance

 So I have yet another diagnosis to add to the list on my patient portal. That's the bad news. My legs and feet have "neuropathy." They have lowered feeling from mid-calf down. I'm sure a few of my readers experience the same thing.

I've been having trouble walking up and even down stairs. And when standing from a sitting position, I felt like my legs were wood, and waited a minute to start lurching forward. Which was good for my blood pressure also! I didn't feel like I couldn't walk, just had my legs spread in my gait to make sure I was steady.

The good news is that some of my balance issues can be helped (a bit, I hope) with physical therapy. I will be evaluated this next week, and hopefully start working on being more capable, better balance, and gait. I've worked with this therapist before and liked him.



The neurology report on my memory difficulties was to be expected...somewhere in the mild range. I did have trouble giving answers on the verbal test at times. At least I was oriented to time and place. The doctor didn't seem to appreciate my jokes though. I respect him for that. But he said it was a normal range - however when the comments were typed up, he said mild memory impairment. I take that as validation of what I thought was happening. 

The golf course in Black Mountain with North Fork Rd.

And third, and perhaps most important, my essential tremor in my fingers is perhaps going to respond to higher doses of the medication I took before. However it has side effects for my breathing. And/or my breathing meds have side effects for my fingers. It's a delicate balance.

I've got to breathe. I don't gotta type blogs every day. But it would be nice to be able to type, feed and dress myself.


I decided to go ahead and talk about me here, because last night (writing on Tues) I took the Primidone (which is also for seizures) and slept through the night, not even getting up to use the bathroom. I think I felt drugged when I woke up, even though I also felt I'd slept well. It's interesting to note that it's a barbiturate, a central nervous system depressant.

Primidone is something I started at half this dose, and took for a couple of years, before getting to this level. I stopped it four months ago because the doctor in the hospital told me of how it affected the memory of his father. He didn't tell me I should stop it, just gave me that information. (I told the neurologist this, but he never commented on it.)

I personally didn't notice any help with memory having 4 months off that drug, while my fingers got more and more shaky. (I have to use my left hand to steady my right one enough to write anything legible.)

The Albuterol inhaler is called a rescue inhaler. Nobody ever said "this is when you need it." They just said, you'll know. So I found by trial and error that it did help if I was going to do anything like climb a flight of stairs or walk around the lake...by using it beforehand. It doesn't seem to do much if I'm coughing a lot, which can be caused by stress, inhaling chemicals or dust, or exhaustion.

I've also got the same drug in my nebulizer, which I use to clear out my lungs with a saline inhalation twice a day. Then I am supposed to use an Albuterol solution also. I've never noticed it made any difference. 

And now the neurologist told me that Albuterol could diminish the effectiveness of the Primidone.

OK, I've done a bit of research on line, and the drug interaction between Primidone and Albuterol doesn't show up on my first attempt to see more research. However, a neurologist did tell me that, and wrote it in his clinical notes about me.

So now I'm trying to balance between my fingers tremor and breathing.

Did I mention the side effect of being lightheaded all day? So I didn't take the Primidone the next night.


All art today came from the internet!


Thursday, March 27, 2025

Questions and recovery

 


Medical realities:
Dr. at hospital was checking my condition (no touch, just an interview by my bedside) and I started having the problem which has become worse with this visit. My word finding ability when speaking was horrible...not just what's the word I want for say, a kind of cookie that's black on the outside with sweet on the insides...an Oreo...but saying  words that were kind of similar sounding but of no meaningful connection. This newer thing was saying 'dollhouse' instead of 'doorknob'!

And my respiratory doctor said, you've been taking this drug for how long for your essential tremors? 

A couple of years, I answered. A low dose of an anti-epileptic which also made my hands somewhat more steady...though lately it hasn't been working all that well.

He said that could be causing my mental frustrations. And how did he know? His father had had the same symptoms, and gone through neurological testing to determine if he had Alzheimers (where word jumble happens.) Then he stopped this one drug and things cleared up for him. 

I said that he was lucky to have a son who was a doctor.

He said his father was a doctor also.

Wow, so I thought, maybe normal aging of just forgetting names that I want to remember (movies and singers at the top) can be mine again. No more dollhouses?

I'm now on day 5 without Primidone. Shaky fingers no worse, but can still type. Mental? Who knows, since I'm home pretty isolated. But I have had a few phone conversations, without any big 'dollhouses' evident.

The eyes:
And yesterday talked with my Care Manager by phone, mentioned this conversation...and he could find nothing in his literature (google?) indicating this side effect to Premarin! I called him about my eyes giving me trouble, and my remembering some drug(s) with side effects that effect one's vision. But of course I don't know which one I might be taking that might do that.

So the problem is that the eyes are slow to react to light...and my right eye doesn't dilate at the same rate as my left one. Looking in the hand mirror in a dark room, I would then look towards the window, and my right eye stayed darker quite a noticeable bit longer to change.

Healing:
So I have a doc appointment  this (written on Tues) morning, to check on vision difficulties, and update post-hospital. It's with a new PA so she won't have knowledge of the Premarin thing probably. But I need on record that this is happening, and maybe get suggestions.

And now, something more upbeat!









Wednesday night note:
The PA who examined my eyes agreed I had slow response to light. She referred me to an Eye Doc...not an optometrist, but an ophthalmologist? Whichever, they haven't called yet to set up an appointment.
I'm through taking all the meds from hospitalization, no more antibiotic on an empty stomach and steroids on a full stomach. And now I'm a bloated mess. I hope this weight gain and overly hydrated goes away...about 6 pounds increase in the last week! Silly me, when I'm sick why would I gain weight?

If it's not one thing...

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And today marks 6 months since a lot of rain and wind (remains of Hurricane Helene) ruined the lives and livelihoods and homes of many people here in  Western North Carolina. It will be featured at 7 am on Good Morning America. Since I've been waking up at 5 am lately, this should be a breeze for me to see. (Hospital stays do change one's schedule!)

Saturday, February 22, 2025

Saturdays Critters

 A furry friend who was blowing in the wind when I met him/her.




And off they went for their walk. I did ask the dog's name, but promptly forgot it!

I have some cute tiny birds that visit the trees (bare in winter of course) outside my windows over the laptop screen. Sometimes I try to take their photos...usually pretty sad results.

Big Windy had hoarfrost showing early on last Monday morning.

See the blue bird to the right of the blue flag!


Nope, an enlargement didn't help, even changing the background to more shadows.
He was all fluffed up and kept coming back to that branch all day long. Silly guy wasn't even in warm sunshine most of the time.

Our smattering of snow Wed. morning last...melted away by noon and that was all we got here!


Thursday morning  Big Windy showed a bit of snow, and neighbor's roof had either frost on snow...so grateful not to be snowed in, but actually I was "cold-in," and didn't go out till Friday (except to get the mail wearing my big coat)
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Sharing with Saturday's Critters
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Today's notes on politics: (which I mainly post to have as a journaled record of what these crazy times are experiencing!)

From PBS News Tues. Feb. 18, 2025 - 9:55 pm

Let’s look at some of the facets of the federal workforce that have lost staff. Consider this a snapshot of the landscape right now, with the caveat that more actions may take place after this week’s email.


Other agencies, such as the General Services Administration, Cybersecurity and Infrastructure Security Agency, U.S. Citizenship and Immigration Services, and the Department of Education, have had dozens of staffers cut.
 
The hardest hit agency. Currently the largest source of layoffs is the U.S. Agency for International Development.
 
So far, more than 12,000 American workers — most of them contractors — have been laid off, according to Stop-WorkUSAID, a group tracking the cuts. Organizer Sadie Healy told us they tallied this figure based on individual names they have vetted. The actual total is likely larger, she said.
 
Thousands more at USAID are also under a stop-work order and face potential firing, depending on a court ruling, which has frozen action against them for the moment.

 

Teenage Mutant MAGA Incels, the young men who gained access to our Social Security and IRS records thanks to MUSK.

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Today's quote:
A memory may feel abstract or immaterial, but it is actually a biochemical process taking place in the brain. It involves neurons communicating with each other via the “wires” or synapses connecting them. The pathway an electrochemical signal follows as it continually travels from neuron to synapse to neuron constitutes a memory.  
Whenever you have that memory, the same pathway gets activated. And the more it’s activated, the more it becomes hardwired into the brain’s circuitry. Eventually, it becomes a long-term memory. 

Activation also requires enzymes, molecules that set off chemical reactions. The problem is that these enzymes don’t exist for longer than a week. If a memory is to endure, it would seem that the enzymes would have to remain functioning for years or even decades. 

Once the enzymes turn off, one would expect the memories to go with them. “This became a holy grail in neuroscience,” Lisman says. “How can a molecule in your brain serve as a memory? How does nature accomplish this?”
—John Lisman
Thanks to fellow blogger, Love is a Place, 

I'm quite relieved to know why my brain has such trouble these days!

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Today's art:


Noelle E. DeVito

Friday, October 1, 2021

Walking and photos (republished after dual posts last Sunday!)

 Happy first of October!!

And this was such a good event to happen to me, to prove my memory is somewhat faulty and needs to be tuned up. I posted 2 blogs last Sunday, so this one has moved forward, and yes, some of you already commented the first time, sorry to lose those comments. 

 Walking the Lake Tomahawk path...last Thursday, with friend Cathy. We both had not done any exercise actions for a long time, but that day was crisp and bright, light winds, and low humidity. So we spent a half hour with frequent breaks on the welcome park benches along the way. And with this good weather, I planned to be out doing such again several times this week.



Fencing was removed for repaving the tennis courts...next it needs lines painted I guess.



Love the gazebo to frame photos with...

There's the Lakeview Center, upstairs for lunch and large groups, downstairs has various classes and a small kitchen, and a small office. I think it still has a pool table and a TV, and maybe a computer for anyone to use. I go to my chair yoga class upstairs.

Today's quote:

When Alexander the Great visited Diogenes and asked whether he could do anything for the famed teacher, Diogenes replied: "Only stand out of my light." Perhaps some day we shall know how to heighten creativity. Until then, one of the best things we can do for creative men and women is to stand out of their light. -John W. Gardner, author and educator (8 Oct 1912-2002) 

Comments may be lost but wait, maybe, no, when you delete the post...but I had an older window open still on the computer, with the original post...so here is the original comment...Thanks!


Walling is a little thing that I guess I used to take for granted.